stayxhated asked:
Hey. Keep your head up. :)

I’m really trying to. I appreciate that a lot.

"There it goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you don’t feel any desire to speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try, you can’t seem to connect to anyone or anything."

stayxhated:

Reblog always

(Source: lilithluciferous)

What did I do? I just made things 100x worse. I am so stupid.

Anonymous asked:
Can a girl cum without the help of a guy?

bigmacmami:

Yeah wtf y’all ain’t that special

My chest feels so heavy. I haven’t felt like this in a long time. It sucks when you give your all to someone and open up about your entire life and they have the ability to cut you at the drop of a hat whenever they feel like. I just don’t get it.
Was it all just a big game to you or what? I don’t know what parts were true and what parts weren’t. I don’t know how you felt for more than half of the time. That’s all I can think of. I guess it doesn’t really matter anymore because we are broken up now, and you want nothing to do with me.

And most of all why can I not cut you out of my life like you did to me? Especially after the way you treated me and the things you did. I wish I was that type of person to not keep constantly putting up with someone’s bullshit. You showed me exactly what a relationship should not consist of. But then again you made me feel like there was no one else but you for me. How/why is that?

I missed you so much today. I already made a list of why when I got home, and it bummed me out even more. I want to talk to you so bad. I want to make you laugh again. I have such a large lump in my throat writing this all.
I don’t write this shit for people to see, I do it because I think it helps me cope better. Like I’m actually talking to someone and letting everything out but no one really reads it anyway, and that is perfectly fine with me.

I know this is going to take time but I want it to hurry the fuck up. I want to look at the good parts of myself again. I want to hang out with friends and not talk about you. I want to hang out with people and not think about you,

Maybe that’s why. I’m making it harder for myself because I keep on thinking of what could have been instead of what’s going on now.

"Date someone who meets you half way. Date someone who brings you a glass a water when they get themselves one. Date someone who makes sure you don’t spend money on ridiculous things. Date someone your ex hates and your mom loves. Date someone who’d rather spend a Friday night watching movies, than out with 50 people they barley even talk to. Date someone who sleeps on your chest and leaves a little puddle of drool. Don’t date someone who makes you leave oceans of tears."

At the end of the day it’s the little things. (via offtheocean)

Missing you more than I should today. I need someone to slap me and get me out of this mood, I hate it.